Pre Christmas update

It's pretty much here

Christmas Eve tomorrow and pausing during the de-ransacking of my home I pause to jot this down

I can't go on the way I have been

I look at my life and realise that out of my 'extended family' 6 of them are married with kids and are happily so

the others are single and seemingly happy to be so for now

I have had a rough year with another serious illness (which has left a scar) and again spent a lot of time in pain and fear on my own in my concrete box

I got so frustrated with the situation I found myself in that I thought about quitting gaming for a time (glad I didn't, I'm playing 3 games a week these days and enjoying each of them)

Work is appalling but it is a means to an end

Things must change

Once Rob told me that I come up with all these plans because it's always easier to Say than to do and there is a little rush when I come up with a plan and leap into action

Then slow and Stop dead

so things are going to change

There is a plan but I'm keeping it mostly secret

There will be visible signs and it will involve me travelling a bit (hopefully)

I am Happy

But could be happier

So that is what my 2014 is going to be about  - finding a happier me

for now that is all

Merry Christmas

Julian