Compromise - I do that a lot
I make deals with myself so I can eat what I want on the understanding that I behave for a period afterwards - then I welch on the deal and eat tons
this has to end - this will end
I wait until the weekend to do stuff and then don't so things like the work on the flat doesn't get done
and feel like I have to explain some of the choices I make about things I do - don't really know why but I'm putting it down to low self esteem because of a range of reasons
those reasons are no longer important because I just turned 45 and I'm still single and living a life that I don't always enjoy
This is going to change
There are things I do and like which others don't like or understand - nothing illegal or immoral just different
thats their problem not mine
I don't have to explain myself to anyone
Thats all I'm prepared to say on that subject
as for the flat I have 7 days before I go back to work and some work isd being done on the flat - today is general cleaning and more involved sorting etc will be done as the week goes on
another post xmas attempt to lose weight will be undertaken and at some point this coming year
I will do the gym thing when I want to - I wont be pushed into it or bullied into it or anything else
becasue of my back and respitory problems and Robs neck we won't be going to Southwell festival but will be trying to see somne of the folk acts we like at indoor gigs
I will be trying to get to events next year on top of everything else in an attempt to expand my geekery and meet new people
I have a hospital appointment on the 16th Jan for tests to see if an old problem has resurfaced (I am not looking forward to that I can tell you)
with all this going on I hope to meet someone as the idea of 'hooking up' with someone in a pub doesn't appeal
(although the 3 women I have loved in my life I have met by chance and it was a bolt from the blue kinda thing)
anyway we'll see what happens with that
right now I'm having a massive cup of Earl Grey and catching up on Agents of Shield
I agree with you about not explaining yourself to anyone. My philosophy is to do whatever it takes to be happy as long as it doesn't break the law, and it doesn't negatively effect another person in any way. Beyond all that, the only limitations are the ones we impose upon ourselves.
ReplyDeleteWe have many facets to our lives, and when we look at them we can see if they work or not. If a facet is harmful, mentally or physically, then change or remove it.
What you said about going to the gym for example. If there are barriers to that, then find an alternative. Regular walks where the amount of time is more important than measuring every inch, could be beneficial. I have read that walking, or any exercise, can improve our emotional state as well as our physical condition.
The key though is to make self improvement fun. If it feels like hard work then we will have days when we just don't feel like it. So, making exercise part of a routine makes it easier. Just don't push too hard.
But, ultimately, make change for yourself, not for others. Don't lose weight to impress people or in reaction to their perception of you. Do it for you, if you feel that you need to.
Something that I found useful, is to create a plan, then print it out and stick it up somewhere. For example, I created a list of what I eat each day, and try to stick to it. Also, a schedule, so that my life feels like it has some kind of order. It does help.
ReplyDeleteI also looked at the internet to find foods that were better for me. I discovered last year that I have an intolerance to gluten, which is impossible to remove completely from my life. But when it comes to weight loss, look for foods with lower fat content. Low calorie stuff doesn't make sense to me since calories are a form of energy, and it is the fat in things that makes us gain weight.