Thats it I give up

I've spent the last few months (maybe longer) stressing about where life is going - if it is in fact going anywhere or whatever

Well for now the big things in life (a job i actually enjoy, finding someone, all the rest) can wait I need some time to relax and lose weight and just get my head together

If the good stuff happens along then I'll grab on and not let go but for now .... well we'll see

J

With what happened with Rob this week it's time I stepped up and got things really moving

3 goals for the year (at this time)

1) get back into shape (as before but everynow and again me and Rob going for long walks up bestwood or somewhere after he recovers) then gonna find me a nice gamer/whovian lass and settle down or something - this is ongoing as in not going to stop

2) decorate the flat - stating around the first weekend in Feb and going every month or so I hope to be done mid year

3) building a truly magnificent Doctor Who collection - also ongoing

work isn't important as it is a waste of my time but it pays for the above so it has to be

those 3 points are the focus for my 2013

'here endeth the lesson'

J

Many years ago (33 maybe) I got into Doctor Who - my gran used to take me to Arnold Library (near where Arnold market is was the original site) I used to read all the Dr Who novelisations I could and took photocopies of the covers and use them for posters

I had some figures and a photo album with some postcards released by the BBC and the documentary proof that on a family trip to Blackpool I dreseed in a fairly bloody good Peter Davison costume (complete with hat) - I saw Someone driving Bessie down the road outside the Exhibition in Tom Baker garb (and to my eyes it was the man himself)

Time moves on and the moving starts, 17 or 18 times since I moved onto that first place with Brian and Jon in `87 I think

Lots of beer and a dodgy relationship later (and one truly good one) and the Who stuff (or what was left was boxed some of it went including I'm sad to say the photo album) but some of it I kept

Years on and the show ended and I put it out of my mind apart for  the odd find in charity shops

Show comes back and although I was happy to see it still wasn't the same

However over the last few months with the improvements I've been making and this year being the 50th anniversary it's all coming back

A con in August (more if I can find them) I have a spare room that currently is full of stuff and I've got Rob and Langley coming over in a couple of weeks to help me start decorating white walls and TARDIS blue woodwork and carpet tiles (also blue) some shelves/bookcases and the who collection goes in there (just stories I think not a vast number of figures etc,although I've got an 18' remote contol Dalek)

And thats just the start the completion date (I hope) for the flat to be decorated is July/August (not all Who)

I'm currentl;y reading a book called Ahistory: an unauthorised history of the Unverse according to Doctor Who - 784 pages of the history of everything -  just read the origins of the Cybermen (all 4 of them origns not Cybermen)

All in all this year is the year of Who :)

J

well here we are at the end of 2012

was going to ramble on about changes to be made and angst and crap (as I am sometimes wont to do)
but gonna summarise

did well this year what with the weight loss and stuff - but could have done better

didn't get as much done round the flat as I could have done

happier about life in general now than I was this time last year (but I was still ill then so..)

Work sucks and sometimes allowed that to leach into my personal life

So.....

going to take another run at the weight loss (xmas gain first to go)

Starting end of January (payday) with the flat decoration (little room first)

By taking more control over my life I aim to be happier

Work is a neccessary evil that pays my rent. bills, and hobbies and that is all

Also

I am a gamer who collects things - the collecting thing mostly meshes with my gaming and is going to be ongoing during 2013

I am going to be hitting some cons across the country (hopefully)

and some Gigs with Rob and Steve and anyone else that wants alone

and you never know I may even meet someone

Happy New Year

J

well Suse and Alex do this so lets try............

Things to do 2013

1)  Lose more weight - not sure what kind of target to put on this so  5 stone over the year and more if I hit that

2) be a better ref - I thin all refs should try to be better and I'm no exception - need to be more organised, need to take breaks when I feel burnt out like last time, need to be more of a 'DM is right' stance rather then the democratic approach I've been using because that really doesn't work

3) be a better player - just feel I could be more involved

4) carpet the flat - carpet tiles either massive operation one weekend or doing it in parts

5) tart the place up - either some redecoration or wall hanging stuff -make this place look less than a games shop store room

6) travel - to events and stuff at least at first

7) meet more gaming people - not a reflection on the friends I've got but theres loads of stuff I could be doing and people I could meet and I don't cause it woold most likely mean striking out on my own a bit - scary!!! (see point 8)

8) stop letting fear hold me back

9) stop procrastinating ... well maybe later ;)

10) sort out plan (and execute) with regards work - it's terrible and they're keeping the pay freeze in place for at least another year (5th year) - need to get promoted or transferred within the council (don't fancy looking for completely new Job)

It's a start

J

And once more........

Weight loss - going to fall short of target (maths don't lie at the current rate I reckon I'm gonna fall 1 stone short, but there are still 2 weeks to go so who knows) anyhoo happy with what I've done and in the new year I will reset the 5 stone clock and start again :)

Work = Rubbish

Flat - I've got the idea for the whole flat now there will be games and books everywhere (I think I was having problems trying to assign seperate rooms for seperate things like a book room games room etc) but if I think of the flat as a whole 'Julians headspace' thing I think it'll be great when it's done
Going for Carpet Tiles (they're really cheap) and as Rob pointed out you can use double sided tape (apparently it's what it's used for) instead of glue which is really expensive and it'll be grreat - that starts in January

Need a new Washing Machine (old one died last weekend) also in new year

Went to Boyes in Arnold last week and picked up a load of Mantic figs on sale so large scale painting and glueing continues and hopefully start wargaming early next year

Sadly 2 of the 4 events I wanted to go to next year have fell through the Folk festival was going to caost £200 before you get to camping gear and cash for the weekend itself (food, embarassing shirts etc) so me and Rob are looking for an alternative (thought Download but thats about as expensive) so we'll see

and Games day isn't going to happen because Games Workshop have gone off the deep end the prices on the stuff (especially the new Hobbit stuff) is ridculous so I'm siding with Mantic full bore now so need to find a new gaming event to replace that (maybe Paizocon UK)

I was going to put my Christmass tree up on the 19th but as I'm not really feeling it I'm going to put it up on the evening of the 14th after I get home after my works do and I will have White Christmas (yes I still like Bing and Danny Kaye) and perhaps The Box of Delights on TV while I get the tree up

If that doesn't work then I may as well give up ;)

Right I've got to go out to a friends house now to play games (SURPRISE!!!!!) and then tonight gonna scribble and paint etc

So for now seeya

J