part of this 'remodelling' thing I'm doing to myself at the moment is to reacquaint myself with some hobbies or aspects of hobbies that I stopped because of financial issues or other more trivial concerns

Standing order starting this Friday
more boardgaming
going to cons (quite possibly solo but I think I'm okay with that)

and as part of this I've decided what my next 2 reffing projects are going to be

After my pathfinder ends (a break I hope) but Rappan Athuk (am buying thebook with some of my works xmas club money in December)

and after that I'm going to ref a Middle Earth Campaign (in Pathfinder or whatever we're playing at that point)

Sorting out what MERP and lord of the rings material I have and will start 'studying' ... well I already started today

quite happy with this and got some other stuff running through my head regarding these projects but still at 'thinking stuff up' stage

J

There is a barrier in this weight loss thing it involves (inmy case at least) pain

My torso hurts, around my belt line hurts, I feel tired and not headachey exactly but a kind of 'detatchment' it's worse at work and I'm gonna have my soup and wholemeal inna mo

It's times like this when I wonder why I keep doing this it happended when I started a year ago and I went though it again after christmas (XMASSSSSSS *shakes fist*) and I'm going through it again now

The thing is

I remember a time when I used to wear a t shirt Suit jacket and Jeans and pull it off well

I remember  a time when I didn't feel self conscious going out

And I remember a time when I felt really good about myself all the time

And regardless what my 'dark side' says I've never stopped believing that I can regain some of what I've lost

So screw him

(and although it's a little more tired than usual)

Onward :)

BTW they called my glasses are ready - will pick up tomorrow

J

It's official I'm having my midlife crisis (on infinite earths ;)   )

If I drove it would be a car (or Bike) but I don't so it looks like comics

Setting up a standing order again, Marvel and DC and sorting through my existing comics for the strips I want to concentrate on to fill gaps - been looking at collected editons of titles like Avengers and FF and the issue coverage is fantastic

So that kicks off at the end of this month

Also

Me and Rob are working on a combined Mutants and Masterminds world, mostly M&M but with just a touch of Marvel and DC characters (quite enjoying the thought of that)

Also

although I have said in the past that I didn't fancy the whole cinema thing (not that I went much before) but I really fancy ging to see Iron Man 3 and as I am watching Star Trek (most recent movie) at the mo I want to see Star Trek 2 and I the other blockbusters as well so thats going to change as well

Was thinking about getting into heroclix as well but after some research and locating the current up to date rulebook (all 213 pages of it) decided that al I want to do is locate figs for the M&M

The Comic Mart that I went to last summer (which was rubbish) has moved to a hotel in Hockley (just round the corner) noww when I went before i went looking for Doctor Who stuff but didn't look at the normal comics gear so gonna have another look

And a new con comes to Nottingham (Nerdfest) on the 5th October

oh and I'm gonna start wearing glasses (for monitor work and some reading) so thats new

So while I'm going back to Work on Monday (and as I have to deal with fallout from the welfare reforms as wel as the normal crap) I'm not looking forward to it but am not dreading it and will start looking forward to my next break in about  8 weeks (Southwell Folk Festival)

All is well

J

half way through my break and I have done ... virtually nothing

well, wrote and ran my game last week (went wel I thought), started one collection based project and had some thoughts on some other stuff

Tomorrow it changes, tomorrow I will have 7 days until I'm back at work and 7 days to get everything I wanted to get done...done

So Alarm back on tomorrow and treating it like a work day as far as getting up breakfast is concerned and walk down to work then back to the flat and start clearing/cleaning the flat

got this weird quiet determination thing going

we'll have to see exactly where I end up but lookiung forward to the journey - for today got some paperwork to catch up on

J

One day left

It's been a long 3 months (not had a real break from work in that time) but I'm almost there, one more day and then 17 days off

and things are going to change

I'm going to slowly and surely put things back together

Flat Spring Cleaned
Books and stuff sorted, cataloged and lists prepared for taking to cons (first one in about 6 weeks)
Game material caught up on (current campaign written up so I'm weeks ahead) and stuff scribbled down for WoD, and M&M
Figures sorted so I know what I've got and what I need for a wide base of figs (bit short on animals, have no dinosaurs and very few non humanoid monsters)
I have games and comics to get on ebay (including going through a massive stack of DND stuff Rob gave me to fish out and Ebay the rest


I want a different Jules to come out of the other side of this cause the one here is in a bit of a rut (I think)

I've allowed things like the weather to slow me down and as they are forcasting more of the same I have to push on through so (and I don't believe I'm considering this) after the bank holiday I am goign to get up the same time I always do and walk to work (then come home again) this is to keep the weight loss going

I so want to cut loose and get on with the changes I feel I need to make, to back up the choices I have already made but are being held back by ... I don't know what  and if I can't identify what that is I'm going to have a tough time killing it

However, that is not going to stop me trying

So

ordered the first of the camping gear for June
Infiltration and Elder Sign for the board games things I'm doing
Some clothes

and 2 Graphic Novels

Earth 2 (new 52) and Avenger Vs Xmen

I thought I had the whole comic reading thing beaten out of me by the last time I had a standing order but I think I may have just needed a rest and I wanna do some Superhero gaming so looking forward to reading those (especially Earth 2 as it's the formation of the new 52 JSA which I think I prefer to the JLA)

but all that is in the near future and now it's 10pm The Eagles are playing on Youtube and I am going to bed

Night all

J

I'm back baby!!

after a long failed (diet wise) period from just before xmas until recently I wasn't doing well but lost 9 pounds this week so stick that in your pipe and smoke it

since the decorating plans are a little postponed because of camping bills, conventions and the like (but will still happen in June/July kinda time) been inna frustrated holding pattern untill.....

One of the problems I've been having with the gaming setup is that mostly I RPG but sometimes I boardgame (and as recently a sorta Mark/Rob based request for an occasional boardgame saturday thing to be held at my place) and I want to wargame a bit (or maybe a lot) space (organisation) is a problem until.........

Didi you know that my favorite Thunderbird was Thunderbird 2 (bear with me)

It was modular it was the swiss army knife of TV craft and this is my inspiration

for the RPG side I have the Whiteboard 6' by 4' surface you can draw on and thats freat

I ordered a big piece of Blue felt this week to use as a covering for the tabble so that people can actually pick up cards (was tricky before) for the boardgames

and I have a thought about the wargaming side of this which won't happen until my xmas club money is dolled out (£300 coming my way after my xmas shopping is done what am I gonna do?)

also

I wanted to have the living room done in vintage furniture (if not the whole flat) not very vintage just looks that way, but had to go with Ikea because my games collection kills other, lesser furniture

but

I have a table that looks a bit vintage and that is going to replace the 2 pine tables I have the white board on currently and will be easier to store when I need to take the gaimg setup down - sorting that out today

sorting some ideas out for figure storage to be incorperated into the living room setup and sorting other stuff into other parts of the flat (DVDs, novels that kind of thing)

getting Infiltration (which is fantastic) and Elder Signs at the end of the month and Descent second edition later in the year (saw a video review by these guys

http://youtu.be/XH1ENL3J8ks

 and apparently not only is it a new smoother system but with the conversion kit you can use the monsters and heroes from the first game in the second edition one)

I'm getting there and the flat deadline is christmas and I think I'm gonna make it :D


J

my problem is that I talk a good game

but I'm frequently afraid of consquences

Fear of failure and even fear of what would happen if I suceed

It's sometime paralyzing and I don't have the faintest idea where it comes from

but I'm going to try something new - I'm just going to start doing things

lets see how that works out

J