well that was the week that was ....

I saw Brit

On Monday couple of feet away, her eyes met mine and the world didn't explode or anything

you see I was listening to an audio of LOTR and it was on my way home from work so all my brian did was 'oh she's nice'.... wait...wasn't that ....and I think I may have smiled and I walked on

Then I got an attack of the warm and fuzzies and several things happened

I looked back to see if I could see her again - she'd gone

I got back to the flat and spent an hour thinking about what I was feeling and a funny thing happend

The guilt, depression, anger thing I've been carrying around for nearly 20 years left... actually left

I still think she's beautiful and I still wish that it had worked out but that 'thing' that had been holding me back, down whatever went away

That was Monday

since then I've been more positive more clear headed (It's difficult to put into words) but the realisation that I have been wrong about a lot of things from back then briefly popped up but I'm not looking for any more things to brood about so I'm gonna see how far this goes before the Universe trips me up

Maybe this time it won't

Work on the flat continues

Xmas planning goes on

My birthday (actually the 27th) at the new and improved Tap n Tumbler

Fuckin A

J

September 2013

well it's september already and some of what I wanted to get done this year has come to pass

but the inportant thing is that the bookcases are in place

I have something of a library which is scattered around the flat and some in Marks attic

once the next phase of the sorting gets done (books on shelves then stuff sorted into the places the books are currently) I can sort getting the stuff from Marks and get that put away

I have a load of posters around the place that I was wanting to get frames for and put them up, but the frames cost £15 each minimum and although Rob came up with a plan involving MDF and spray adhesive and such that will still cost quite a bit in the long run so I think I may just revert to the basics and get some drawing pins - not as fancy but I'll have art up and wont have to stare at just the white walls

work tomorrow and no time off until sometime in October but using the next 6 weeks or so to keep the pressure on the weight loss thing (routine is by far the most useful thing in this process)

Looking to finish my Pathfinder Campaign around xmas (maybe) anyway I've got 4 dungeons left I think (maybe 5) and then it'll end - then I take an extended not reffing period while Rob takes over then I'll start serious work on the Cthulhu thing

The bones figures are in the country so maybe turn up in the next week or so (then I have 250 figures to sort assemble and paint)

In early December I'll have £300 coming my way from the works xmas savings club and I've been wracking my brains trying to figure out what I'm gonna get for myself and finally decided on a 32GB ipad mini (goes for £350 so will have to add some to it) actually aiming for the 64GB one but thats £430 if I can get them money together will get that one


so some things haven't gone the way I wanted them to but I'm not anywhere near done yet

but for the most part it's going well

J

An update

where to start

I don't know where it came from but of late I've had a resurgance of the old me

Quite frankly I've been tired and fed up a bit of late (may have been recovery from the leg thing) but slowly been getting better

but the last couple of days have been great - I've sorted out the bedroom and the little room in preperation for 6 bookcases to be dropped off on Friday as Rob found a guy with a van that will only charge me £20 for the job so that plus Rob & Margaret are only charging me £10/bookcase (and they're biiggg bookcases) I'll be sorted for that for ages

still hovering around the same weight class as before but thats changing slowly so learn patience or step things up (If I hit the gym now I'm fairly certain bits of me would fall off) but the gym is inevitable at some point (actually looking forward to it a bit)

If I can get the furniture/storage issues sorted this side of xmas then I can redecorate in the new year and once thats done will look seriously at flooring (no rush right now and it's always better to paint the carpet I would have thought)

huge pile of RPG books slated for more Amazon/ebay still got the core games I will always keep (pathfinder, MERP, WOD etc) and cleared room for new stuff

Reaper Bones on the way (finally) about 250 figures being shipped from the states (and thats my figure issue solved)

Been looking at Teraclips stuff recently but it's a bit expensive (pics on link below)

http://www.worldworksgames.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=11438

going to be branching out a bit gaming wise in the near future there are several gaming groups run at shops (and one at Wargames Foundry not far from the flat ) all fairly close to me and going to be hitting some of those

Need to play more card/boardgames

Next Year is the 40th anniversary of D&D and quite possibly the release of DND next and I've got to admit despite the whole 4th Edition/Edition Wars nonsense I still hold a great deal of affection for D&D and will be participating to some degree next year (haven't quite decided exactly what yet)

Feel the need get out and stretch my legs so to speak (not shutting down current gaming arangements but finding new games and gamers )

so basically personal life wise things are good

now a couple of fandom issues (don't usually do this but)

1 Ben Affleck as Batman

I didn't really like Dark Knight Rises - big plot holes (usually filled with a flashy gadget or Anne Hathaways backside (which although very nice is not an excuse for gaps in a film)

stuff didn't make sense (broken back climb out of pit for example)

It wasn't nearly as good as The Dark Knight and that was dissapointing

now Affleck - it's an actor playing a comic book hero and there hasn't even been a trailer yet - he may not impress some people but if we've learnt anything about recent Actors to play the Doctor or cmpanions you shouldn't judge them before you see them do the thing

the reaction is ridiculous and I for one am going to give him a chance

2 The leaked photo from Doctor Who 50th (providing it's not another hoax)

it's a blurry pic on a mobile from an alegged clip/trailer from the 50 th anniversary show

it shows David Tennant, Matt Smith and John hurt with a glimpse of someone else who looks like hes wearing Tennants

so what they're saying/hinting at is that Tennat, Smith and Hurt are going to be in the 50th with Tennants double (who presumably came across with Rose who we already know is going to be in it)

How is this news - we already pretty much knew this -

It's about as surprising as the announcement that the Daleks were going to be in it - WHAT A SHOCK THAT WAS

BBC still dissapointing in lack of stuff for the anniversary year (it's August now and what have we seen?)

ah well

Stephen King reading temorarily on Hold as I got the latest R A Salvatore DND book this week
good so far and this (and the next 5) are leading into the Rebirth (restoration) of the Forgotten Realms for DND next

ave cleared the littel room (todays goal for the sorting of the flat) so are cleared for Bookcases

game not on for several hours

gonna go play for a while

J

good week I think

got down to 24 stone dead which is good

work wasn't completely awful for once

traded old DND stuff in and some more went in this morning total value for the 2 trade ins about £280 or so for 21 books - mostly gone on Doctor Who DVDs (and a couple of Stephen King Novels)

I've been trying to get all 147 released Who DVDs by the end of the year - currently have 57 with about 20 on the way and another trade in the credit for whihc will be available midweek next week

decided I'm going to Whooverville after all (Doctor Who con in Derby) on the 31st cause I'm a big who fan and I really want to go and meet other who fans and chill

every now and again I feel really good and positve and this is one of those times

waiting for the other shoe to drop, cause it normally does

but may be wrong so smiling all the way at the moment


work on the flat actually happening may be reasonable by christmas

games good, Stephen King Reading good, Who Collection good - just need to lose a load more weight and find a hot geek girl and I'm golden

J

So gaming update

Thursday group down to 4 players (temporarily?)

Going to leave it that way unless one of the people already promised a seat wants to opt in

Current Thursday Campaign looking at in far dim distance the possibility of an end

Then Cthulhu, period Cthulhu

Then back to fantasy (after my fantasy bateries have recharged I hope) with a grand Forgotten Realms campaign in the new Sysytem

Or if the new system is going to be rubbish the Pathfinder

Just traded in 9 3.5 DND boks for 22 Doctor Who DVD's (thank you Amazon)

First Book in 'The Sundering' (first in a sextet of novels covering the new realms setting (or the build up to the new setting))

and on 20/08/13 Storm over Baldurs Gate - a new adventure in 'The Sundering' that no one seems to know what edition it's in and sounds like (from what I've seen on Amazon) a new Box Set

 Starting to get a feeling of anticipation I've not felt in ...............    (Star Wars paraphrasing)

but now to work

later dudes and dudettes

J

3 years in the flat and I'm sane

2 health scares and I'm still here

weigh less now than I did when I moved in but still far too much

thought I loved someone who didn't love me and now .. well shes no longer an issue

tomorrow I'm going to wake up at some ungodly hour and have a giant coffee then I'm going to the new book shop in the centre to pick some things I saw today

Then me and the flat are going to have a confrontation

there will be 2 armchairs in the living room with a standard lamp and a footstool

the library which is going to be a fan boy room of some description

The massive amounts of rammell and clothes that exist in piles around the place are going to be thrown out or sorted

progress has been made but more can be done, much more

but right now I'm on my second Doctor Who DVD of my weekend (first was the 3 Doctors and now The Daemons)

Generally I'm happy

Could be happier  but I think I know what thats going to take and well it'll happen or it won't really

now for coffee and dinner

J

not going to be doing any more of these daily things unless something weird happens but

Day 2

day at work goes something like this

get there

start work

go through patch of falling asleep at desk

bolster

sleep thing again

leave work

get back to centre and all energy comes back, AC/DC on MP3 and smile on face

it's officail work is probably killing me, draining the life right out of me

need new job

life now depends on it

anyhoo tonight more work on flat and tomorrow is from this week on game (thursday) writing night - me biig coffee and some Doctor Who Audio while I plot the demise of the rebel scum...erm... players

no maybe I was right in the first place

oh well

J