Overall fairly happy with the week

Had this really odd good mood which generally increased until it was fantastic by the time I hot the weekend

Saturday morning I randomly found a blog set up by my brother who, for reasons I can't be bothered to go into anymore, I dont have any real contact with anymore

The blog basically blamed me for his current isolated life (it's really due to him making series of mistakes in his life that has led him to this point) but as it is his way to blame everybody except the real sourse of a problem then it was only to be expected - except I didn't

I know he's being trying to re establish ties with me (that weren't that strong before his mistake) but seems to think that messaging me on facebook like some 'bunny boiler' is the way to go

The simple fact is - and I know he reads this so I'm hoping this will explain things and finally he may realise that all this crap is doing is pissing me off - fact is until he shows some solid signs of getting out in the world and finding a Job (not easy these days but people are doing it), friends, a life and such wonderful normal things like that then I'm not remotely interested because Quite frankly using me as a fallback friend is counter productive

Yesterday morning after a brief rage episode where I messaged him and told him that what he'd done was wrong and that I was a little put out (used different words but trying to keep language reasonable for once) he deleted the blog - can't shake the feeling he's just set up somewhere else but hey

Funnily one of the points he made in his defence was that no one reads it - last night I found out that one of my 'inner circle' has actually been reading it keeping an eye on what bros been saying, because some of us still are concerned - but he has to move on and get a life

so anyway bad mood dissapeared and I got on with my weekend

got adapter from post office and tried laptop - it is really slow I'll have to do some software modification I think to get it running properly and franly I don't have the patience for that right now so it'll wait but still optimistic

Still optimistic about the whole getting fit and getting on with life deal - this feeling of optimism isn't going away and although usually I'm more cautious with statements like this (because it's usually when you say something like this that the universe kicks you in the genetalia but what the hell)

I really think I'm going to win this

Joinng the NCC employee fitness thing as it's only £16/month and I can walk down to Victoria Leisure centre and meet up with Mark and Rob at the weekends

Del and Suse go to the one across the road from me but from what I understand they go randomly and apparently regular human social interaction is good for you :)

Planning on Mondays, Wednesdays and Saturdays (eventually)

erm

System for Cthulhu/Hunter thing is going to be BRP (in other words the Cthulhu system) as chaosium are putting out 'generic' rpg material for it as well as cthulhu stuff and I do like their material

Had a meeting at work this week about the new benefits thing ' the universal cock up' as some are calling it

Business manager painted a picture that basically means after the benefits and council tax people are replaced or reassigned the only ones left will be Benefit Recovery (me) and appeals (Mark) and I got the impression that after the dust has settled it'll just be the 2 teams picking up the mess left by the UCU - but job security I suppose

So thats the news this week - the highlights of next week are going to see the Crucible on Friday and payday on friday as well - game tonight - game thursday

And of course more walking

Seeya