not going to be doing any more of these daily things unless something weird happens but

Day 2

day at work goes something like this

get there

start work

go through patch of falling asleep at desk

bolster

sleep thing again

leave work

get back to centre and all energy comes back, AC/DC on MP3 and smile on face

it's officail work is probably killing me, draining the life right out of me

need new job

life now depends on it

anyhoo tonight more work on flat and tomorrow is from this week on game (thursday) writing night - me biig coffee and some Doctor Who Audio while I plot the demise of the rebel scum...erm... players

no maybe I was right in the first place

oh well

J

Day 1

First day of the new approach

Something I ate yesterday seriously didn't agree with me (been an interesting day at work) but I pretty much guarantee I lost weight

walked into work

every apple I tried to eat today was rotten (all 3 of them thank you tescos)

came home and put water and dinner on straight away

did three of the 4 things on my list of things to do (mostly win)

very tired but pleased

same tomorrow and every day

J

Today is the line in the sand

I'm tired at failing to change my life for the better, things that I feel will make me happier like my weight/fitness the state of the flat, the pressure that shoddy organisation of my time puts on myself with regards to the game and such and the list goes on

So today a line in the sand is drawn"this far and no further!!!!!"

sorry channeling picard a bit

so after I get home from work  the TV does not go on and FB only gets checked briefly for word on status of games and such and will have a lit of things to do before I get to watch anythig or play anything

This week is a trial we'll see how it goes

Also today is the first day I'm walking into work since going back, walk in bus back for a while then walk in walk out

So if I don't appear on FB as much for the next few days don't panic

later peeps

J

I have things I want to achieve

I never achieve them as I get distracted

(plus 2 major health scares in the last 18 months hasn't helped)

So I need discipline and structure - a little every day and cut down on the distractions

got some vague ideas what to do - I'll think them through today and if I get them straight in my head then will start tomorrow

Change is coming

(I know I've said stuff like this before but you have to give me credit - I never give up)

:)

J

I know you're there

a little update as you seem to be reading my various posts a little wrong

My leg is healing and that will take months

They guys were rolling dice apparently while I was ill as a joke cause they were talking about what would happen if I died and my stuff was left lying around

If you want to 'talk' leave a messsage on here

And if you're worried about me contact me

J

They rolled dice for my belogings

J

Next Step

The leg is better (more or less) one last bandage and a final nurses appointment on monday and just waiting for the 'Scarring' to fade

Another bullet dodged

Got some shifting done today the closet is shaping up and no 'back bending' was done

Strange yesterday after the docs I came back had some lunch and flaked out on the sofa for an hour, got up and my legs have been hurting ever since top of the calves almost like when you've been for an extremely long walk (which I've not) but I don't  think thats important

weight has been gained but as I'm going back to work on Monday and getting back to the old routine things should start again

Pathfinder campaign is ongoing and sometimes difficult to write for but I'm still enjoying it enough to keep going

Next game is going to be Cthulhu

Then a Forgotten Realms Campaign

Need a break from running fantasy, really do - but thats for the future

New Tap refit pics on FB look good and I 'm throwing caution to the wind and being optomistic and saying the Tap n Tumbler is coming back next week :)

Got some other stuff going on in my head but sme things I think should be kept secret until I'm sure I can pull them off

generally things are on the up

J

Onward

It's getting better

Leg is definitely getting better

I've ahd to live with a certain amount of isolation over the last 4 weeks and it's largely been painful and unpleasant

But it's given me time to think

I've started sorting out the enormous mess the flat is in due to the stop/start sorting that has gone before - this will be an ongoing process over the week and I want everything as sorted as can be before I go back to work (so 7 days)

Can't really shift furniture but Rob has offered his help and I'm sure I can get someone else involved as well and that needs to be done before the 22nd

A little bit of the weight I put on in the early stages of the infection has gone on cause of docs orders about taking it easy but I'm watching what I eat and slowly dialling up the activity before I go back to work

This is usually where I go into a meandering account of wanting to find true meaning and a person to share my life with blah blah

What self involved batcrap!!

I sort the flat

I sort my weight/fitness

let the rest take care of itself

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Was talking to chap at work about how this year wasn't going like I wanted it to and he suggested thaty I use this year as a rehersal kinda thing and do the Year of the Jules in 2014 which is a brilliant idea

So next years planned events (or Wish list)

Conquest

Maybe the Games Expo

Southwell (if we can find an alternative to messing up our backs)

Whooverville

Dragonmeet?

we'll see

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So after a difficult month I am bruised but not bowed and slowed but not stopped

Onward!!!!

J

the year that wasn't

This was supposed to be the year I get on with stuff

Con Quest - was originally supposed to be a shopping tryip - then an opportunity to meet new people and play some games, then the Thursday group was going to go

I bought some gear before Conquest, the Thursday group dropped ut and I got a sinus infection and couldn't go anywhere anyway - one wasted ticket and a sense of dissapointment

Southwell - music, people, beer and food were fantastic - the camping was the worst experience I'd had up until that point (and I've had a colonoscopy) came away with a bad back and we came home early - however if we can figure out how to sort the sleeping arrangements then I think we're going next year without a doubt

three weeks now I've been in constant pain and very little sleep down to a 6 inch long by 2 inch high by 8th of an inch deep strip of flesh that should be on my leg but isn't this was down to an infection that I picked up from somewhere that has gone away now but the after effects are still with me and will take weeks to go - also sciatica (I think stems from Southwell)

BUT - I'm still smiling, I'm still pushing on and although I'm slowed by this I WILL NOT BE STOPPED BY THIS OR ANYTHING/ANYONE

Whooverville next month (Who con in Derby), Nerdfest in Nottingham in October and Nova Con in Nottingham in November

and next year It's going to happen all over again

started buying cds aff amazon

going to collecvt Billy Joel, Bruce Springsteen and a few others, if you hunt around you can get then for 3 or 4 quid each on CD and as I'm starting from the beginning I'm listening to their early stuff which is great

now I have to go through my character for tomorrow, go through almnost all the characters for my thursday game so I can get the power levels right -  and get some work to do for the thursday game which is back on this thursday

so apart from insomnia and pain things are going okay

:)

J