its a funny thing
I was unemployed for 13 years during the 80's and 90's and got used to things like not having breakfast and lunch

that was when I was younger, these days that means a lot of things

these days it means that after a day at work I feel like crap

this has been going on for a few years

when you don't eat right (in my case) you feel bad, that means tired, nervous, paranoid, physically ill, shaky and quite frankly hopeless

I didn't realise that would efect my outlook and behaviour  - net result is that I spend a lot of time being bummed out about things that in the final analysis don't really matter as much

Now thanks to MMM and Rob I realise that if I keep to a proper food plan I will be a normal life

It scare the hell out of me that I may have spent the last few years being an  asshole because I didn't eat enough apples

I now know after modifying my daily diet that I can be better

I have been today

I have said before that I would change my ways

I'm not doing that now

I'm just doing

J