When my current run as ref in the week ends I'm hanging it up, for a while

No reffing

And I'm not reffing D20 again (probably) inspiration being what it is you never quite know when your sitting there and an idea hits you which you really do have to get down on paper and as D20 is the most common denominator it may be that if it happens at all

I'm not reffing Fantasy again (probably) see above statement

My sense of wonder has pretty much gone when it comes to Fantasy, it's no longer wondrous landscapes and images in my head of terrifying creatures or incredible magical effects it's all about stats and working out movement in my head etc - I knew this would happen someday and I hope it's not permanent but it may be

Not to mention that reffing DND (and Pathfinder) is bloody hard work after a time as players go up levels and power creep comes into it - it's not fun when it gets like that and DM's do this thing for fun just like everybody else at the Table

I thought about just stopping roleplaying alltogether for a while but The Wednesday Game and Onyx Path Publishing (They're really White Wolf) put me straight on that 

I will still give DND next a look but hold out little hope

So starting after next payday I will be selling off everything DND I have (all editions) I will keep the pathfinder stuff but box away everthing reffish

The WOD game I play at Dereks and Suses has more than rekindled my interest in that system and I have Savage Worlds now which is a generic thing that has a number of settings for it (Including Deadlands) but it lacks something for Space ship to ship combat so I'm getting Traveller

I'll someday run some short adventures of various systems on Wednesday nights but no long term campaigns for me in the forseeable future - there are other reasons for that decision but for the life of me I can't figure out a way to broach those issues without starting some ridiculous scandal or something so leaving those alone

 Weight loss slow but ongoing

Job = Shit - I mean really the feeling I'm being crushed in Mind, Body and spirit is constant in that place now - yesterday after lunch I spent 35 mins trying to get one of my monitors working (this kind of crap is a regular thing at that place) it monotonous work that doesn't change, we've not had a reasonable payrise in years and even my team leader admitted that I'm not being paid what I'm worth but the only way to change that is to get the whole section reassessed and that may well result in pay cuts for some others on the team so she won't do it

So my plans for strating an open university course (creative writing most likely) next September have been moved to February as I'm starting an escape tunnel

Lovelife = none ( still hung up on a couple of people I shouldn't be but after 20 years of being single sitting on my feelings is second nature now but still)

The Flat = ongoing getting some stuff in to start tarting up the place and really want to make the place more comfortable but sometimes see the size of that job and balk - but not giving up

Thats me ... I don't give up

Right got to get scrubbed up and dressed as I am going round Del and Suse's to embarrass myself by 'running' a board game

Later

J

Quick update

well my good mood continues

and in other news work continues to suck the big one

and I have a feeling that the reason that the beeb have been so shit about the Doctor Who 50th coverage is this

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/entertainment-arts-24448063

I suspect that there have been a large number found and they may be releasing them between now and the anniversary

which is nice

but only a theory, they're having a press conference later this week

fingers crossed

watching Who from the start beginning this week

and indulging in my guilty pleasure

expanded Universe Star Trek Novels

gotta go to work now more later

J